Do your fingers itch? Are you pistol whipped?"
The white noise is overpowering
I can't hear
All that comes to mind is static from the noise
The ever going confusion of sound that erupts and disrupts my thoughts
The thoughts never are complete
The intentions are not as follows
But I swear to god that I didn't mean it
When that light switch goes off
It is a new person
You can only induce panic at this point
Beyond you could ever imagine
More than you ever have
So much more than you ever will
As the bomb sirens go off
Raids are sending scuds and V2's our way
But even underground is unsafe
So bring your camera
To this Kodak moment of a mistake
As once again we find ourselves in turmoil
Sleep is nonexistent in the chaos
The turning and twisting of my stomach hurts
But I can't sleep with the noise
And god am I tired
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you write that?!?!
ReplyDelete/ i love the new picture/background thing :)
-because my livejournal still isnt working cuz i forgot the password...remind me what it is please?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtA7YIFapnY
ReplyDeleteIn my throat... I can feel it.
It is crawling. It is slithering.
It wants out- it stays in.
What are you, creature of my wrongs?
Who does your heart beat for?
Surely not me. Surely not him.
Your heart beats for no one.
Your heart beats for you.
I wish I could be like you.
My heart is in shreds- pulsing.
Pulsing. Pulsing. Pulsing.
It stings. It burns. It feels like its being bitten.
By you?
Do you bite at the remaints of my heart?
Do they fill you with love?
No.
They are like cardboard.
They are like stone.
And you slither still!
Your fangs bite at me so horribly.
Please... stop.
Please... don't.
A snake!
Your cold skin chills my insides.
I am like you, or you are like me.
But all in all we are the same.
I am a snake.
I am a dangerous snake.
I am a snake.
I wrapped myself around two hands.
Two hands with wrists that pulsed.
One wrist was my home.
One was another place of rest.
The two places parted- I was stretched thin.
My stomache was ripped in two.
I bled- I am bleeding.
I am a snake.
I lost my home.
His hand... warms my cold skin.
Now I freeze.
I turn to ice.
I feel nothing.
Numb.
Numb.
Numb.
I am a snake.
Numb.
Do you need me?
Oh... you do.
I am not whole.
I am not capable.
I cannot do it.
I cannot do it.
I need him back.
He walks away.
I squirm- I slither.
I leave myself behind.
My blood trails.
Everyone will see it.
It doesn't matter.
Numb.
Numb.
He looks at me- he loves me.
He is hurt- he is bleeding too.
He... he is... crying.
do not cry i cant live when you cry it tears me apart and i cant breath or think or even see what lays ahead and your eyes they turn red and your cheeks become wet and inside i turn black all because of myself all because of this mistake mistake mistake how could i be so dumb so cold im so numb and i cant lose you and you cant cry i love you i love you i love you i love you forever.
and there the other one is, holding my other half. he wants to keep that half. i want to give it back to my lover. but it is stained- i cannot be put back together. i'm sorry i can't make you happy either. I'm sorry that i dragged us under and into this. i'm sorry i sunk my teeth into your heart. I'm sorry we did this. I'm sorry both our lives have gone gray.
I'm sorry you still want my other half.
I'm sorry you can't have it.
You'll always have a part of me.
Just... just not half.
and you are my best friend.
And he is my lover.
two different worlds.
mixed, and blurred, and fuzzy, and loud.
everything is so loud.
the noise hammers my ears.
my heart hammers in my ears.
it's still beating...
i'm still here.
so are both of you.
numb.
numb.
numb.
Words are for singing
ReplyDeleteNot stabbing
Like the teeth I bear
I ever so sink
Into crimson oblivion where nothing is known
Nothing is known
Nothing
It is all a complete recreation
History repeats itself
Over and over
This should be no surprise to me
And yet the conscience that I have listened to is now ignored for you
I am sorry that confusion led to dismemberment
But to return to the crime scene is nothing less than what I expect from you
The smile you give is nothing less than an alibi
The story is one to put a child to sleep, something to give the mind a pillow to rest
How ignorant was I to think the end was a beginning?
Just keep the half as reparation payment
As I won't be needing it
This snake is done with his teeth
Now it is time to let the venom sink in and take its course
I'm sorry my words aren't sung
I'm sorry I brought my foolishness to thought
It is nothing less than what history has taught us
lalalal tom likes alia ashley likes austin. they both messed up and they should be happy if what "punishment" they have right now is what it is. cuz it could all be a hell of a lot worsen. now its time to be there for the one you hurt and not thinking about eachother and what happened in great detail with metaphors. so fix it with those people if you havent already and hope to god neither of you fuck up again.
ReplyDelete- i just found a whole solution and stated the problem without having it be poetic.